The plethora of opportunities

For most of us, we live in a society with abundant resources: delicious food to taste, delicate clothes to put on, various activities to attend to, wonderful places to visit and numerous things to do. Yet, all these abundance are not necessarily good for us: we’re getting distracted to the extend that we don’t know what exactly we’re chasing for.

Some people say we are getting superficial — that we are trying endlessly from one thing to another and shortly getting tired of each of them. But this superficialness doesn’t come from nothing. We’re superficial not because there exist many temptations, instead, we’re not able to resist these temptations that trick us into thinking about illusions and trajectories of ourselves. We try to find life meanings by doing things but often end up in vain, maybe the right way to go is not finding meanings: maybe it’s the other way round. How we do things and live our lives is simply the meaning.

The meaning of a nomad’s life is traveling and not settling anywhere. The life meaning of a adventurer is adventure. A person focusing constantly on something becomes an expert.

Opportunities are always there, but we are not. It’s not an opportunity without the capability of taking advantage of it, be it the accumulation of prior experiences or fast learning and adapting abilities.

Indeed there are too many opportunities, however, one does not need thousands of opportunities to succeed. One is enough. Prepare for it, focus on it, reach for it before it comes to you and let it work for you.

We need a talk

Weird, I’ve been thinking talking with people isn’t actually a waste of time. During the past few days I’ve been talking with people and it turned out to be quite pleasant experiences. You get to know people when you start a discussion.

I didn’t know Bangladesh was called East Pakistan 30 years ago. Yea I knew India, Pakistan and Bangladesh used to be one whole country under the
jurisdiction of Great Britain. I got to know India was divided into three when I was discussing with some classmates last year. But I never realized Pakistan and Bangladesh used to be one country. It was refreshing to know that when I was talking with one Pakistani today during lunch.

Earlier I’ve heard of rumors on how Jews are ruling America and why Obama was chosen to ease the anger or suspect of the people; I’ve heard of how Mao Xinyu has been pretending to be a fool
so as not to be banished or killed; I’ve heard legends of how masters of Mahjong observe on the table and connect players’ behaviours to their fates…

I’m not sure if all of those still stand against existing evidence or just logically correct, still it doesn’t stop me enjoying these rumors. They open my eyes and enable me to think from different perspectives. As I see it, this is one of the most beneficial factors one could have out of China, besides the
accessibility of YouTube, Twitter, Facebook and porn videos. In China people tend to think the same and behave the same. “One (unrealistic) dream, one (occlusive) world.” Uniformity is always the rule of thumb. But here, at least in Europe, you feel individuals bear vastly different opinions over the same issue. Most importantly they are not afraid of speaking out their minds. You understand them better; the communications with Europeans are easier than with Asians for me. In some
occasions I’m just fascinated with their thoughts; their ideas are sometimes peculiar but always refreshing.

Frequent exchanging of ideas helps us to be understood better. The other day the French guy asked me if it’s a joke when we say we don’t have access to Facebook. When I replied yes he seemed shocked. It could be difficult for him to figure out why, but having this in mind may help him understand how terrified of the external world.

I was feeling weird because I
always thought talking and communicating with people is useless, or not so efficient at best, compared with reading. Now I’ve got a new figure. It’s nice to talk with people. It’s necessary to get a picture of others’ thoughts and make yourself understood. So let’s talk.

Mobile fantasies

This morning I was going to work with Rasib and we had a little chat on mobile phones. He told me that people in Bangladesh would be willing to pay months’ salary to buy fancy cell phones. Some dudes are so insanely crazy that they have good shiny mobiles, but they cannot even afford to pay subscriptions. It’s funny to picture someone carrying an iPhone while not being able to talk over it, instead he
goes to public telephones to make a call…

Earlier I’ve read similar stories with Vietnamese. They spend a fortune on mobile phones that may bring them self-assurance. To think a bit, maybe people are not so irrational when we look upon ourselves. As a matter of fact we all do the same thing every now and then. Buying fancy clothes and boots than one should; attending not-so-affordable high-class universities; humiliating oneself so as to get in some community,
etc.

The common thing behind the scene is that we spent more than we could afford to get such a feeling that we are important, or at least as important as others, if not more important. We are eager to get ourselves recognized all the time by pretending to be more respectful than others. Failing doing that, we may at least try to tell ourselves apart from the ‘losers’.

But what’s a loser anyway? Paying more than one could possibly afford doesn’t look like a winner’s
behaviour for me. One may look great doing that, taking away the fact he may be feeling miserable at the same time. People are always pretending to be someone else, at last they are confused and insecure and lost in others’ images. Isn’t that pathetic?

Using iPad doesn’t make you Steve Jobs; wearing black frame glasses doesn’t make you an art director, no matter how hard you try. You’re just yourself and no one else.

立志

毕业在即,前途未卜。不是没有动力,是实在不知道自己该干什么好。前几天连续看了几天的Android开发,从昨天开始又开始看Qt,自己已经迷茫的手足无措了。

但是不管做什么,只要能做好,就不会有任何问题。重要的不是做什么,而是我愿意花多少精力来做这件事情。

所以从今天起,给自己一个目标,然后矢志不渝的坚持下去。不再给自己任何借口,不要心存侥幸,不要有一丝恐慌。踏踏实实,一心一意的奋斗,不管前路如何艰险,我只顾走好眼前一步。

从今开始,用所有精力去完成一件事情:学习Qt。具体规划表:

25/10/2010–07/11/2010 参考C++ GUI Programming with Qt 4
学习Qt,顺便复习C++语言。理解Qt各种类的使用方法,每天必须保证至少200行的代码量,中途不准间断。
07/11/2010–21/11/2010 第一个Qt项目的详细规划,包括详细设计,严格按照软件工程方法做好前期工作。
21/11/2010–17/12/2010 第一个Qt项目的编码和测试,以开源方式发布。严格按照计划进行,宁可考试挂科也不能放弃执行自己的项目。
20/12/2010–17/01/2011 对上一个项目进行总结,给自己充电,阅读理解An
Introduction to Design Patterns in C++ with Qt 4。同时启动第二个Qt项目,做好详细规划。
18/01/2011–10/02/2011 第二个Qt项目的编码和测试,以开源方式发布。严格按照计划进行,宁可不做毕业设计也不能放弃执行自己的项目。

铁了心去干一件事情,拿出破釜沉舟的勇气来,就像两年前一样。

信仰的崩塌

以前有人问我,我的宗教信仰是什么。我曾大言不惭的回答道,我信自己。但如果现在有人问我同样的问题,我可能支吾半日也得不出答案。我信什么?这个问题过于宽泛,我相信很多东西——那么我不信什么呢?

首先我不信任何宗教。几乎所有的宗教都以前世或者来世来警示教众,然而让我相信这些太难了。我既不相信我是由前世的猪羊牛马或者与牲畜无异的人转世投胎而来,也不相信我死后会有人来对我进行审判好让我进天堂或者下地狱。前世与我无关因为前世不能影响现在的我一丝一毫,我既记不清前世的我是何等模样、经历了何等人生(或者畜生)、又因何而亡,也不关心前世之我现在为何附在我这副皮囊之上。来世与我无关因为我虽非圣贤君子,却也非鸡鸣狗盗之徒,未曾行大善,也未曾铸大错;未曾挽狂澜于既倒,也未曾溺声色犬马之荒淫。我只是那么卑微倔强的活着,仰不愧于天,俯不怍于人。虽不敢大言坦坦荡荡,却也乐得问心无愧。再者今生既尽、我已非我,来世如何荣华富贵、逍遥快活,又与我何干?

其次我不信任何政府。政府代表执政集团的利益,而到目前为止,从未有任何政府代表过我的利益。不管某些执政集体的宣讲和承诺如何冠冕堂皇,一旦上台行使权力,那些口号便马上被抛到了爪哇国。政府永远是既得利益者的政府,他们可能会以某些营营小利来收买人心,但别指望他们能待民如子。无论专制国家,抑或民主世界,都是如此。专制是强权管理大众,而民主是由掌控发言权的团体主导的民主假象,同一剧本的两种不同的表演形式罢了。

另外我不信任何历史。历史从来就是由胜利者书写的,所以相信历史意味着偏袒赢家。虽然这是一个成王败寇的社会,但这并不意味着胜者可以肆意粉饰自己、践踏事实和诋毁对手。历史就是婊子给自己立的贞洁牌坊,后人前去瞻观就未免会让婊子玩弄了感情、玷污了灵魂,甚至有时自己被婊子嫖了还忙不迭给钱。虽然有以史为鉴知兴替一说,但如果在各种浮夸的史料中追寻蛛丝马迹,未免显得太傻太天真。抛开历史由胜利者书写而导致史料的不真实不谈,另外一点,历史是一种没有生命力的东西。这意味着编撰者可以随性发挥,即便夸大其词甚至本末倒置也无伤大雅,为了文学性等因素而考虑而曲解事实也并无大碍,反正死无对证。所以历史可以被当做小说、话剧、传奇故事,但历史绝不是历史,至少不是它所描述的历史。

我不相信的还有很多,但是回到文章题目,使我信仰崩塌的是我不再相信自己。虽然拿自己当信仰显得自大甚至严重自恋,但作为一个怀疑论者,不这样做意味着自己一无是处,意味着自己所有的想法的谬误,意味着自己构建的体系的倒塌。

然而现在,自己肯定不是十全十美,自己的体系存在诸多问题,但这并不意味着我的思绪完全扭曲。也行我可以自称为“温和的怀疑论者”,质疑一切,包括质疑自己为何质疑所质疑的事物。

信仰的缺失的确不那么让人愉快,但是如果能换得更成熟的想法和更完整的思想体系,那么这一切都是值得的。

成熟与衰老

最近跟小朋友们聊天,常常自诩为老人,颇有“曾经来过”的风度。当然,也只有在小朋友面前才会有自己没有枉活几年的感叹。虽然成长的过程包含阅历的丰富、眼界的拓宽、羽翼的丰满等进程,但这些并不足以支撑起“我已成熟”这个断言。成长是一个漫长的过程,而成熟是一种状态,并且维持这种状态还需要另外一些行动、需要不断自我反省和纠正。

也许辨别一个人成熟与否的一种方式就是看他是否已经开始衰老,当然前提是只有成熟之后才能衰老,这在一般情况下是普遍成立的。遗憾的是,当你使用这种方式得出自己已经成熟的时候,你已经不再成熟了。这种方法可以用来判定他人,却不能用在自己身上——只缘身在此山中——否则总会有事后诸葛亮似的无奈。

正因为这种绝对成熟的状态难以判定,所以平日使用的最多的是相对成熟状态:不是纵向比较,而是横向对比。这样就能在比他人成熟的时候洋洋得意,比不过别人时黯然失意。这种方式最大的缺点在于容易让人迷失自己,难以企及“不以物喜,不以己悲”的境界。

——于儿童节有感而发

 

怎样让别人为你工作

前几天在Quotes of the Day上看到这么Robert Frost的这么一句话:”The world is full of willing people, some willing to work, the rest willing to let them.” 看看自己,好像一直是“willing to work”的那一类人,远没有另外一种人活的逍遥自在。

就拿现在安全课的小小seminar来讲,选题的时候其他两位组员就指望着我来写写程序,这个我倒没有多大意见,毕竟这是我所能做而他们可能不太会做的;然而后来他们得知我的Scientific Writing得了个Preliminary的A,于是把写报告的任务也推给我了。

我呢?被他们俩赞扬几句就欢喜的飘飘然了,加上为了向世界人民展示中国人勤劳刻苦的优良传统,还有我明年没时间从芬兰赶到瑞典来重修这门课,主要任务就顺理成章的落到了我的肩上。天天累死累活的看论文,写代码,好不容易写完了发给他们,指望他们能给点儿意见,至少找找语法、拼写错误什么的,可是到现在也没听到任何意见,哪怕是毫无意义的建议,甚至最起码的“Good
job”都没有说一句。哥虽然是为自己,可不是也方便了你们么?我幸苦劳作,你们还真把我当牛当马啦?想起和尚同学当年总结搞ACM的经验时说过的“不怕狼一样的对手,就怕猪一样的队友”,总是一声叹息,都是眼泪。

这是让别人为你工作的一种方法:脸皮厚。任务是大家的,我是什么都不干的,要死大家一起死嘛,有什么大不了的。当然,最后终于可以逼出那个不想死的或者不能死的人替他们做苦力,然后大家都可以欢欢喜喜的继续过日子。

还有一种方法:给别人承诺。社会上的惯用守法,你替我工作,我满意了就给你适当的奖励,我不满意了就请你滚蛋。这种手段中,如果奖励确实适当,可以算是非常公平的方法。大家相互利用,我得到了我想要的,你得到了你想要的,大家都高兴。

还有另一种情形经常被忽略:我让你心甘情愿的为我工作,我既不威胁你,也不奖励你,但你会想着了魔一样的拼死拼活为我工作。父母为孩子,恋人为对方等等都是这种情形。之所以会有这类情况,恐怕要归功于人性吧。父母为孩子,孩子不一定能报答二老;恋人为对方,对方也不一定会领情。然而为对方干活的人会有一种期望:我为她好,他应该会被感动从而嫁给我吧。可是这种期望大多数时候都是一厢情愿的,对方从来都没有想你要求什么,你自己愿意犯贱,关我什么事?你咬牙切齿也没有用,谁让你最开始被迷惑了呢?

我倒是希望别人能为我干活,如果可能的话最好是心甘情愿的给我当牛做马。不过这样的机会可遇而不可求,退而求其次,如果比尔能给我奖赏,让我觉得自己还有利用价值也不错。二者都不成?放平心态吧,就当是自己给自己干了。

 

这段时间三鹿和三聚氰胺被炒的沸沸扬扬,很多人把以前的某些事故联系起来,我甚至收到表姐的邮件反问我们现在还能吃什么。

的确,毒大米,毒香肠,毒火锅,毒方便面,毒桶装水……太多的毒已经让我们无所适从。但别人吃三鹿吃出病了我们就吃雅士利,雅士利查出来有问题我们还有N多不含三聚氰胺的奶粉,我们不会关心明天会不会查出来什么过氧化氢、甲醛……只要今天吃着没问题就行了,明天不能吃了大不了换一种继续吃——因为中国人民最擅长的便是——忍。

中国人能忍并不是因为我们是乐天派,也不能说明我们心胸有多么宽广,最重要的原因是我们已经经受了太多的压迫,所以我们每个人都把自己包裹在蚕茧之中,甚至都没有留下一个往外观望的小孔。我们的宗旨是:只要没有损害到自己的利益,或者给我们的伤害不够大,我们忍气吞声——多一事不如少一事。事不关己,高高挂起,我们太自私,太冷漠了。

——欺行霸市,一幕一幕,我们忍了;

——贪官污吏,一个一个,我们忍了;

——煤矿坍塌,一次一次,我们忍了;

——食物中毒,一波一波,我们忍了;

……还有什么我们不能忍的?

涛哥批某些官员“麻木不仁”,结果呢?当事人自己都不敢声张,唯唯诺诺的说“没事,没事……”

“是可忍,孰不可忍也”——这不应该作为我们的口头禅。

忍无可忍便无须再忍。

责任感和博爱才是我们社会需要的,不要向丑恶低下我们高贵的头颅。牵起手来,我们无坚不摧!

National humiliation day

The air alarm lasted for 15 minutes, reminding people here the national humiliation—on September 18th, 1931, the Japanese army launched their long-predisposed intrigue to swallow our land.

Without the alarm, it is just a common day. Many may have forgotten why today is special; many may feel confused by the alarm. All they care is how many medals we got in the Olympics; or nothing at all except which clothes they shall put on.

Chinese are forgetting their histories. Or are we becoming short-sighted?

At this moment when China concentrates all its resource on economic, situation like this doesn’t seem weird at all. When our energy is limited, we have to give up something for others. When it is the right time, we will get rid of these problems one by one.

But when is the right time? I’m sure I’m not alone upon this question.

 

How to Control Piracy in China

As the Internet becomes more and more popular, it’s increasingly convenient to share information with each other. However, at the same time, the Web has given rise to some serious problems, for example, piracy. And this may bring about a new moral crisis.

Now or never. Since it’s so urgent, we must find ways to ban piracy before it gets more serious. Fist of all, the government must lay laws to protect the right of authors and film producers, and punish the pirates severely. Piracy in China is more serious than other countries, it’s because, at least to some extend, that we haven’t got any laws to punish the pirates. Second, we shall let people know that it’s both morally wrong and illegal to by pirated books or DVDs. Some people are just not aware of what they’ve done is wrong. Third, we may achieve more by reduce the price of authorized product by a little bit, for many people just think it shouldn’t be worth so much.

Rome is not built in one day. To solve the problem completely, we’ve got a lot to do. However, if every learns to show respect for others, we certainly will make it. It’s just not a problem of how to solve it, but a matter of time.

 

How to Solve the Energy Problem

Nowadays we seem to be having a splendid life, but more and more people start to worry about the energy problem. It appears that we’re going to have an energy crisis soon. The world is likely to run out of oil and metals and thus cease industrial production.

To this problem, many countries respond with the demand for more rigid conservation of our natural resources. Indeed, by this we can save a lot since energy wasting is so serious that it has become habitual and traditional. If the natural resources are used economically, we can certainly slow down the present drain on the limited energy supply. However, conservation alone is not the answer. It’s obvious that we can save much energy, but we can only delay the energy crisis, let alone solving the problem completely. No matter how abundant certain natural resources may be, they are bound to be used up ultimately as they can not reproduce themselves. So in the long term, we must develop and harness new energy sources such as solar energy and nuclear power and other unknown resources. These new kinds of energy are more effective and clean and they will surely benefit us a lot.

In brief, traditional resources are not limitless and new kinds of energy are urgently needed. If we are to keep a sustainable development, we must try to solve it quickly because it’s one of the
toughest problems we are faced with.

 

可怜的女人

今天回寝室路上,看到一位女同学。她上身紧绷的T恤衫倒也勾勒出了其“完美”的曲线,下面的纱质超短裙更是让人浮想联翩。无奈长春的风总是那么喜欢戏虐人,它似乎也对裙下的东西十分感兴趣,不停的想掀起女同学的裙子,抚摸着她光滑细嫩的肌肤。于是路上就上演了这样滑稽的一幕:美女一边把手放在臀部不停地把裙子往下压,一边四处张望,深一脚浅一脚的向前走。

我笑了,旁边一些女生也笑了。虽然我不知道她们具体在笑什么,我想她们大概也被那女生滑稽的走路姿势逗乐了。殊不知,下次逗乐别人的,可能就是她们自己。

我越来越不了解现在的女生了,虽然我一直都不了解。我一直想不通她们为什么喜欢穿超短裙,到底是为了感到凉快还是为了炫耀自己的大腿来勾引别人?也想不通她们为什么爱穿高跟鞋,到底是为了让自己看着高挑一点还是为了用那刺耳的声音来引起他人的注意?更想不通她们为什么会把自己乌黑笔直的头发染成黄毛烫成卷毛,是为了装作头上顶了坨狗屎来装酷还是为了扮成哈巴狗来讨人欢心?

她们总会回答:这是潮流!这是时尚!我搞不懂她们为何会因为电视上的几个怪人的似笑非笑的笑而尖叫;搞不懂她们为何会因为电视剧里没水平的台词哭得稀里哗啦;搞不懂她们为何会因为别人对其“偶像”的批评而暴跳如雷;搞不懂她们为什么会看那些浅薄的小说,然后把不登大雅之堂的话语变成自己的口头禅;搞不懂她们为何会对一个素净农村女孩儿嗤之以鼻……

我为她们感到可悲,为这个世界感到可悲,我们可能再也看不到那种身着素裙,抱着书本漫步在林荫道上长发飘飘的淑女了。

然而她们太可怜了,她们把自己陷入了虚荣的漩涡而不能自拔。她们太脆弱。